Psytrance Cultism – Herd Mentality: The “Hive Mind”

Recently there has been a war concerning Ania Ziolkowska and Chris Exeris Sevanick.
It seems that their recent trip to Poland has “emboldened” them, makes them feel “untouchable”
Or, more accurately, they are probably running into opposition, socially, in Poland, and do not want to recognize that it is their own personalities are to blame.

So, lately, they have taken to a campaign of reporting every single little post they can on facebook, attempting to protect their “image”
This is ironic, as they actually have no real personality of their own. They have a manufactured image they have compiled from their interactions with others.
They’re incapable of ever knowing their true selves –

NARCISSISTS ARE PEOPLE WHO never learned to make it on their own. Except for their fantasies of perfection, envy of others who have what they lack, and unacknowledged fears of humiliation, they are empty on the inside. They have no real Self to bring to a relationship with another person, but they desperately need someone else to join them in their emptiness and help them maintain emotional equilibrium. The ideal candidate is someone willing to become an extension of the Narcissist’s fragile ego, to serve as an object of admiration, contempt, or often enough both. The sign over their door ought to read: Abandon Self All Ye Who Enter Here.

– Hotchkiss (pg. 121)

An example of their current debacle of narcissism is this very public display of attempted character assassination

He doesn't like drama, but he makes this post? Narcissists are DRAMA QUEENS

He doesn’t like drama, but he makes this post?
Narcissists are DRAMA QUEENS

Really? This isn't drama?

Really?
This isn’t drama?

The hypocrisy alone, in this entire display is nothing less than hilarious.

“People need to get on with their own lives, instead of worrying about others…..”

Then…..WHY ARE YOU PARTICIPATING IN THIS????

The thing that is prevalent in cults, and narcissists, besides their toxic vitriol, is the fact they project.
They do EXACTLY  what they call out in other people as “wrong”, yet somehow do not see THEY ARE DOING PRECISELY THE SAME THING THEMSELVES

And let’s not forget how the lying and duplicitous drama king himself, Chris “Exeris” Sevanick, chimes in his two cents.

Let’s clear some things up, as, it is obvious they believe the lies Chris Sevanick and Ania Ziolkowska have fed them –

1. Ania Ziolkowska is my WIFE. We are still married, as she freely admitted in the linked conversation. And she ran to Poland to keep from having to pay damages in a divorce.

Remember

Remember “Collective Narcissism” (Herd Mentality)?
Well, here you go.
And thank you for believing I can affect the future of Grains of Sound

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  1. I cannot affect the fate of Grains of Sound, Chris Sevanick’s failing side project, though I will admit I am flattered they believe I can.
    The only one that can affect it’s fate is Chris Exeris, and he’s doing just fine on his own in ensuring it will go nowhere (that will be addressed in another blog)
  2. Chris Sevanick resents that I have been able to achieve more attention with my blogs and posts than he has been able to in the EIGHT YEARS he has been doing Grains of Sound.

There’s a conversation with Kaliptus Ohm that will be the subject of the next entry in the series, where he’s asked to just ask Chris Sevanick for the original of the conversation featured in the “Id-the Ego of Maya” blog, however, he merely continues to call me a liar, rather than verify the truth.

Then he just removed the post entirely.

They don’t want to know reality.
Then they would be wrong.
And, as we previously discussed, a narcissist can never be wrong.

Chris Exeris Sevanick isn't a bad guy? Really? We should look at the

Chris Exeris Sevanick isn’t a bad guy? Really?
We should look at the “Id – The ego of Maya” blog to confirm that.

Grains of Sound - your future is in my hands......apparently

Because Putting Ohm at the end of your name, and then doing what you just said you hated isn’t hypocritical at all………….Grains of Sound – your future is in my hands……apparently

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The Covert Narcissist – The Chameleon

We are constantly attempting to give REAL examples of Narcissism, Spiritual Narcissism, and Covert Stealth Narcissism. Above is a video that illustrates the most dangerous, and the most PREVALENT form of Narcissistic Personality Disorder, of which Ania Ziolkowska is a prime example of –

Ania Ziolkowska / Ania Anicca holds at least SIX of these nine traits

Ania Ziolkowska / Ania Anicca holds at least SIX of these nine traits

Ania Ziolkowska Destroys and runs. Here she is dancing at Riou, In queens, at Psychill Psysundays. Ania Ziolkowska Knocked out my teeth, then

Ania Ziolkowska Destroys and runs. Here she is dancing at Riou, In queens, at Psychill Psysundays.
Ania Ziolkowska Knocked out my teeth, then “punished” herself by jumping on another dick, and partying around New York City.

It should be said, that BOTH Ania Ziolkowska and Chris “Exeris” Sevanick have made every effort for this to not be known, including attempted defamation of character of myself, the author (which they have backed away from, now that the most famous entry on Id exists) because, as with any Covert Stealth Narcissist, they need to maintain

“Their overt behavior projects an innocent, angel-like,good as gold persona which builds them a credible and faultless reputation yet they fail to reach their true potential due to their own self-doubt.”

Covert Narcissists, of which both Ania Ziolkowska, and Chris “Exeris” Sevanick are, are damaging, without empathy, opportunistic, and what we would all consider the exact description of “evil” The most pitiful aspect of this disorder is something we would consider so simple, yet seems so difficult, even impossible for THEM

The basic idea is that a narcissist wants to secure himself against the need to say, “Okay, I made a mistake, I was wrong.”  To a narcissist, this is a fate worse than death, and many narcissists quite literally suffer death to avoid the possibility. Normal people are willing to be found wrong, over and over again, because this is in the nature of life. Such people expect their personal creative process to eventually bear fruit, and are willing to experiment with reality, walk paths not yet explored, sometimes stumble and fall, in the hope of contributing something new to the store of human knowledge. At some risk of oversimplification, a normal person is willing to be wrong 100 times in order to create something uniquely new and useful, while a narcissist sacrifices this opportunity, this stage of personal evolution, in order to be secure against the possibility of being found wrong.  For a normal person, being wrong is the price we pay for the creative process. For a narcissist, being wrong is too high a price to pay — better to label other people as wrong, from within an impregnable fortress of mediocrity. Unfortunately, in exchange for an infantile kind of security, narcissists sacrifice any chance to positively influence the world.

Dr. Brene Brown illustrates so eloquently something I attempted to show Ania Ziolkowska for an entire decade how to be –

This is something Ania Ziolkowska, and later, many of her mutual friends, such as Angelina Panaugua, Kirsten Norman, and Eva Annika Backstrom, began to resent me for (Ironically, it was also the more they dove into teaching of Wayne Dyer, Eckhart Tolle, “The Secret”, Ram Dass, Osho, etc, that they began to resent me more for pointing out the one thing NONE of those ever point out, which is vulnerability. The one thing all of them refuse to acknowledge.)

Even their friends in New York City, now that Ania and Chris have left to Warsaw, Poland, to live in the apartment that Ania and I were meant to raise our children in (it’s all revenge tactics, designed to hurt me, for not letting Ania Ziolkowska have her way) are now willing to come out and say, honestly, what they think of them.

Charlee Zee Monkee's opinion of Ania / Ania Anicca and Chris Exeris

Charlee Zee Monkee’s opinion of Ania / Ania Anicca and Chris Exeris

There is much more that can be said, however, now that I am finally getting back into the actual writing of this blog, and need to clean up the earlier entries, And my need to complete previous series, as well as an upcoming entry illustrating all the people that have thanked us for helping them through their narcissistic abuse, I will attempt to keep things concise, and end with two visual points. One humorous, and both serious.

Happy Holidaze to all.

Ania Ziolkowska / Ania Anicca - Ugly on the outside, and the inside as well

Ania Ziolkowska / Ania Anicca – Ugly on the outside, and the inside as well

Narcissistic Sociopath Traits - Ania Ziolkowksa / Ania Anicca on

Narcissistic Sociopath Traits – Ania Ziolkowksa / Ania Anicca on “E”

Narcissistic Sociopath Traits – Ania Ziolkowksa / Ania Anicca on “E”

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Holiday humor

Ania Ziolkowksa / Ania Anicca & Chris Exeris of Mindless Faith & Grains of Sound really do look like Shrek & Fiona, don't they?

Ania Ziolkowksa / Ania Anicca & Chris Exeris of Mindless Faith & Grains of Sound really do look like Shrek & Fiona, don’t they?

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Toxic – Lack of Empathy and the Demonic State of Egohood

People can say anything. It's what you DO that matters.

People can say anything. It’s what you DO that matters.

I have a MULTITUDE of articles to write that I am WAY behind on, due to needing to complete my TESOL course before I run out of time, however, I was actually REQUESTED to write this one, due to others having experienced SIMILAR behavior from the subjects of this particular one.

I will admit that not ALL of my articles are directly involved with “spiritual” or “yogic” peoples, however, as those are aspects of society and the modern human condition, even this applies, as the additional subjects of this blog ARE involved with these people, and thus it illustrates the type of people these frauds attract.

In the end, whether “spiritual” or regular person, the behaviors are the same……

We should note that my history with BeBe goes back to 2010, while she did not meet Ania Ziolkowska or Chris Sevanick until 2012, therefore we can see where Narcissistic Personality Disorder takes precedent, IF the CONSTANT need for ATTENTION (and complete lack of empathy) was not already OBVIOUS…..

“Bebe bellamont??
Even with My limited dealings with Bebe i am not surprised i have no respect for her at all..And yes people are their drama
Please do! [expose her]  She is toxic
Bebe blocked me years ago when she was friends with my ex wife….I called her out on trying to worsen my split with ****** by feeding her a bunch of lies about me fucking a lot of rave hoes.which I wasnt, I was torn up over the seperation…stupid bitch LOL”
~ Anonymous

The provider of that experience asked to remain, anonymous, and I will respect their wishes, but is one of several that asked me to write and provide what is being provided here (links are provided for additional reference) –
BeBe S Bellamont & Rafael Rodriguez, people ARE their drama.

Attention whores and backstabbers

Attention whores and backstabbers

  • Can you do me a favor? If you see my wife at the massive, slap the shit out of her for me. LMAO!!!
    She’ll probably be hanging with a bunch of hoopers.
    Her name is Ania.
  • November 27, 2011
  • awwww! Sorry I just got this message!!!
  • No worries. I was half joking anyway.
    Hope you had a good time.
  • November 27, 2011
  • Yes I need to see you guys soon! I would have loved to have seen her! xoxox
    (Author’s note – This establishes that BeBe already KNOWS all the players involved.)
  • Today
  • bebe slut icon 16:19pm BeBe S. Bellamont
    why would i unfriend you
  • 6:20pm Shiva Bodhi Dharma
    Read it and you’ll see.
    Takes about an hour.
  • bebe slut icon 16:20pm BeBe S. Bellamont
    i dont have time but i will try to skim
    (Author’s note – She’s FEIGNING ignorance. She already KNOWS all of this.)
  • 6:20pm Shiva Bodhi Dharma
    It’s pretty revealing.
    It’s significant due to Rafael.
    (Author’s Note – Rafael is a photographer for Plurlife.com, and also the personal photographer for Chris Sevanick, as well as HER BOYFRIEND.)
  • 6:22pm Shiva Bodhi Dharma
    Associations.
    You’ll see.
    That’s all I can say. The rest is in it.
  • so you are an abusive drug adict to them
    (Author’s note – She hasn’t even READ anything yet, SHE ALREADY KNOWS the baseless rumors they spread, because she’s been helping spread them.)
  • 6:25pm Shiva Bodhi Dharma
    Then just skip to the conversation.
    You’ll see how that’s not true and they know it.
    And “them” is my WIFE and Chris, who used to be a friend.
    Gotta love it.
    (Author’s note – Remember this point. It’s important later….)
  • bebe slut icon 16:25pm BeBe S. Bellamont
    sorry i just dont know where to skip to
    (Author’s note – Didn’t she just navigate this thing a SECOND ago???)
  • 6:25pm Shiva Bodhi Dharma
    I can’t tell you everything. You have to hear it from their own mouths.
  • bebe slut icon 16:25pm BeBe S. Bellamont
    i am wayy tired
    (Author’s not – This way she can pretend to not know.)
  • 6:25pm Shiva Bodhi Dharma
    Don’t read it today. Get back to it.
    (Author’s note – Just gave her an “out”. Let’s see what happens.)
  • bebe slut icon 16:25pm BeBe S. Bellamont
    sorry i am sorry i just really dont feel like going through the whole thing
    i am sorry this is going on
    (Author’s note – Remember THIS point, as it REALLY becomes important later.)
  • 6:27pm Shiva Bodhi Dharma
    It’s not my fault they spent three hours trying to manipulate me. That’s what happens when someone tries to force their lies to be true.
    The irony is that it comes out if their own mouths. Anyone that reads it all the way through….well, skip to the comment section on the bottom. None of those comments have been edited. They’re what people have said. That’s not including private chats with me.
  • bebe slut icon 16:27pm BeBe S. Bellamont
    i dont pass judgment on people based on their drama. i make my own descions
    (Author’s note – And THIS becomes the MOST important of all. Firstly because she’s been spreading rumors for Ania Ziolkowska & Chris Sevanick, but also because it’s a common line used by NPD’s. Also, people ARE their “drama”.)
  • 6:28pm Shiva Bodhi Dharma
    Lets you know what the people you know are REALLY like.
    But what bothers me most is that people I know KNEW and said nothing to me.
    However, if it were THEM they would have hated me for not telling them.
    It’s the hypocrisy that disgusts me.
    (Author’s note – This was also a test for HER to see if she was really like what everyone told me she IS. Seems she IS.)
  • bebe slut icon 16:28pm BeBe S. Bellamont
    drama sucks period
    (Author’s Note – It’s ALWAYS the ones that say this that cause the most drama.)
  • 6:29pm Shiva Bodhi Dharma
    No. Hypocrisy sucks worse. It’s unforgivable.
  • bebe slut icon 16:29pm BeBe S. Bellamont
    that is drama lol
    (Author’s Note – She KNOWS I’m talking about HER. She’s doing that ditzy airhead thing that Ania Ziolkowska ALSO does.)
  • 6:30pm Shiva Bodhi Dharma
    But not drama I created.
    It’s created by those that say they hate drama.
    Look, friends would tell friends information that’s important to them.
    (Author’s note – Let’s see what she does with this…..)
  • i know you are still involved not saying you caused it i am just being empatheci
    (Author’s note – Firstly, WHAT???? So, you’re ADMITTING you KNOW??? Secondly, well, that’s explained in the next line….)


  • 6:31pm Shiva Bodhi Dharma
    That’s what I have Always done, even if the person would have hated me in the end.
    There’s a need to know.
    This is worse because she’s my wife and he was my friend.
    Therefore that’s not empathy. It’s….I won’t say what it is.
    Empathy is putting yourself in someone else’s shoes.
    Not telling someone is NOT empathy.
    You have the evidence. I’m suing Chris for slander. That is all.
  • Good day.

    Seen 8:28 PM

She tries to put on a good “SHOW” of it, though.

http://www.today.com/id/30312181/ns/today-today_books/t/me-me-me-americas-narcissism-epidemic/#.UaPT45UyRML

“After all, the thinking goes, fourteen-year-old Megan wouldn’t post revealing pictures of herself on MySpace if she had higher self-esteem.
So parents redouble their efforts, telling Megan she’s special, beautiful, and great.
This is like suggesting that an obese person would feel much better if she just ate more doughnuts.
Megan wants everyone to see just how beautiful and special she is, and it’s not because she thinks she is ugly — it’s because she thinks she’s hot and, perhaps more importantly, because she lives in a narcissistic society where she might garner praise, status, and “friends” by displaying blatant sexuality.”
~ Dr. Jean M Twenge, PhD , “The Narcissism Epidemic”

Gaslighting – Inna Kurtser

Gaslighting is one of the oldest tricks in the Cluster B Personality Disorder toolbox.
Unfortunately for Inna Kurtser, she’s not very good at it.
That is what happens when using novices such as Ania Ziolkowska as a teacher.

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Empathy and Lying

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One must ask, when one has full knowledge of the abuses that one’s wife has put someone through, the constant unprovoked physical attacks, the racial slurs (Ania Ziolkowska is white and Polish, and I am black by appearance, but Ania would call me an “Ignorant ass nigger” out of anger, unprovoked, never an apology), the public humiliations in front of mutual friends, a decade of hurt, tolerated for “love”…..

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Chris Exeris, Chris Sevanick, Sociopath

WHY WOULD YOU IMMEDIATELY GET IN AN ADULTEROUS RELATIONSHIP WITH THIS SAME WOMAN WHILE SHE IS STILL MARRIED TO SOMEONE THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE YOUR FRIEND????

This is a perfect example of both the cognitive dissonance and hypocrisy present in the modern New Age Yoga and Spirituality movement.

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There is a game of play – acting, showing one side but actually living another.

Ania lied her way to Poland, then India (emails from Ania to me are to follow) claiming to be learning to be a better wife, while pregnant with our child.

Ania then silently returned to the United States, visibly obvious that she has gone from her Zero size to a losing baby weight size, and promptly got into a relationship that would gain her status.

But where is the child?

Where is MY child?

What empathy is there in THAT?

I’ve come to understand that New Age and yoga followers do not actually understand the meaning of the word.

And that, among so many other fallacies, is where we have walked all over the traditions we claim to live and follow.

What we practice is NOT what the original vedantas state, the Yama’s and Niyama’s.

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And yet we will find ways, with silver tongues, to explain away our transgressions, vainly and narcissistically, while having no tolerance for the transgressions of others.

No EMPATHY.

Sadly hilarious.
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Update –

It seems that Ania Ziolkowska is now publicly advertising her adulterous relationship status.
Let us not forget that, with no finalized divorce on record, this is still, in fact, ADULTERY.
(Poor little fool refuses to live in reality…..)

Ania Ziolkowska is advertising her adulterous relationship status

Ania Ziolkowska is advertising her adulterous relationship status

Of course she’s probably doing this so that people she meets in Poland and wherever will think she’s “famous” because she’s dating a celebrity……laughable at the “celebrity” status, but…..small minds…….

Conversely, Chris Sevanick (Chris Exeris) does NOT publicly advertise their relationship status to anyone except “friends” (people he poaches for his “narcissistic supply”)

Chris Exeris / Chris Sevanick doesn't publicly advertise he's in an adulterous relationship with Ania Ziolkowska

Chris Exeris / Chris Sevanick doesn’t publicly advertise he’s in an adulterous relationship with Ania Ziolkowska

Though this is entirely conjecture, we can only believe that this signifies trouble in paradise, if Chris has demanded that she make this “Public”.
Only time will tell.

 

Spiritual Narcissism

This blog is dedicated to the exposure and education of spiritual materialism / spiritual narcissism, how it appeals to the “Id” ego construct, and how damaging it has become to society as a whole.

It will reference very personal examples, as well as examples in mainstream media, social “consciousness”, and how we interact with one another in a constant state of schadenfreude.

It is meant to be educational, and will rarely be the “feel good” narcissism of feelings (Ken Wilber – “Boomeritis”) that has become corrosively rampant within humanity as of the last 30 years.

I hope many benefit from my experience.